so all in all this summer has been insane.  full of fun and games, tears and broken hearts. 

I started the summer off dating Alex.  It hasn't been that long since we broke up but it seems like years have past since then.  We don't really talk anymore.  It's kind of like it was before we were dating...except now he hangs out with some of my friends.  *shrug* same ole same ole.

After Alex and I broke up I decided I wasn't looking for a serious relationship anymore and that I just wanted to live life and "casually date". 

 It was about then I started working at Cheddars.  After only a week of working there I was accepted into the family and invited to go to the Planet with Mellisa, Chris, Lacey, Brian and two of Mel's friends.  we had a blast.  I got really piss ass drunk and the next week we all met up for Beer pong.  Ever since my weekends, with the exception of the last few have been filled with parties, clubs, drugs and drinking.  The college experience eh?

It seems everytime I go to the Planet I pick up a different guy.  The only three I really talked to after were Chris, Brian and Chad.

Chris I ran into at the club one night with Erika, Jessie and Stephanie.  I had actually met him at Carlies house the year before at one of their parties.  We danced and talked and had a good ole time.

One night, after trying to get in touch with a lot of other people, it ended up being just me, jessie and john john going to the club.  Jessie and I had been drinking so we rode with John.  We got there, drank more, danced, got really hot and decided to step outside.  Outside we are invited to go stand with two guys, one really nice and obviously attracted to Jessie and the other...well...extremely drunk and trying to make me get naked...needless to say that, after i let him buy me a beer or two, i didn't make any attempt to go talk to him for the rest of the night.  Jessie, however, was attracted to his friend, Isaac, and wanted to stay and talk.  I told her I would let her come back in a bit if she would come in with me.  We went inside and sat at the bar with John with a tall blonde guy came and started talking to jessie.  she didn't seem really interested i wasn't really paying attention he mentioned something about how i should wait while he went to find his friend and i told jessie while he was gone she should go back out side to talk to Isaac.  When he left she did as well and it was just me and John.  I was just sitting there, doing who knows what and this guy pulls up a stool beside me.  He doesn't say anything for a while but i could like feel his eyes on me.  Finally he is like so what does the W mean on your hand?  I looked at it and I was like oh it's a M, means i can't buy beer.  And from there we talked, then danced, drank, then went outside.  Jessie was outside with Isaac and his friend didn't look too happy to see me with another guy.  He kept asking me to go over there in his loud drunk voice.  It was rather annoying.  So I found out that this guy, whose name is Brian, was from Miami.  Really sweet, we had a lot in common blah blah.  well we all go back in and the blonde from earlier came up to Brian and was like hey!  This is the girl i wanted to introduce you to!  I was kinda suprised.  the blonde was kinda an ass and brian was really nice.  Jessie comes and finds me, by now it's like 300 and we are all ready to go, she said isaac and drunk boy wanted us to go swimming with them.  Brian and Jason(blonde guy) wanted us to go with them to do...whatever.  Not really in the mood to swim in my underwear and be harrassed by this really annoying drunk guy i made the ultimate decision we were going with Brian and his friend and Jessie could hang out with Isaac some other time since he lived in town.  We ended up going to the docks and hanging out.  Jessie and Jason went down to the dock and talked and brian and i stayed up at the tables.  It was a lot of fun but apparently Jason had tried to kiss jessie or something because she freaked out and wanted to go home.  after trying to convince her it was okay and failing i told the boys we needed to go home and they took us home.  Jessie got out of the car, before we even stopped i think, leaving me brian and jason in the car.  i gave brian my number and he kissed me   and i didn't really hear from him again until last night but thats another story.

Another night, not too long ago, Jessie decided she didn't want to go out with me so i wasn't going to go out either.  Then stephanie called me.  She ask if i was going out and i told her no and she asked if i would go if she went with me. i was like yeah sure.  after agreeing she threw in that her brother was just back from the army and wanted me to go with him.  I agreed and after getting ready really quick like i met him halfway and we journeyed to stephs house out in BFE.  we decided to take my car since we knew Jacob would be drinking.  we get there and like NO ONE is there.  Jacob bought some beer, I drank a lot of it.  and finally some people started showing up.  after a while jacob went off with some of his friends, which wasn't really much of a loss, and steph and i went back to our usual post on the side of the stage.  we were just chillin and a girl comes up to us and she is like hey this guy just bet me 20 bucks i couldn't get five girls i had never met to go dance in the box with me, will you do it?  we were like sure and soon she had rounded up two more and we were up in the box.  tons of fun.  lots of guys had gathered around and all but the girl who had won the bet climbed out of the box.  after that steph and i went to dance.  a kinda cute guy started dancing with her so when, at almost the same time, a guy started dancing with me i figured it was a friend of his.  stephanie informed me otherwise and i turned to the first guy i saw and started dancing with him.  turns out they, the kinda cute one(daniel) and my new dance partner(chad), had seen us dancing and talking earlier and thought we were cute.  blah blah blah.  a few beers later we were all sitting on the sofas talking about who knows what because i was totally wasted.  a couple of beers after that jacob came over to me and started hitting on me again.  both of us EXTREMELY intoxicated.  i told him i wasn't interested and Chad came up and pulled him away from me.  no bueno.  Those two almost got kicked out fighting over me.  I got pissed at both of them and stumbled down the stairs and to the bathroom where i knew they couldn't follow.  steph came in a little while later and begged me to go and listen to chad because she really liked daniel blah blah blah i just wanted to go home.  i agreed, however, and went out to talk.  he bought me a beer in appology and i drank it without a word.  trying to get away from chad i pulled stephanie across the room and up into the box.  daniel climbed up and danced with steph then they ran off, i was really really really REALLY drunk and didn't want to get down so i just danced up there by myself.  then Jacob came up there and danced with me.  appologized for being an ass and ask me to go home with him.  i told him he didn't really want me to go with him it was the beer talking and he tried to convince me otherwise.  hello i'm not stupid i know how guys are.  i got down, with the help of like 10 guys and chad carried me to a chair.  i didn't remain in the chair long, i kept falling out, and just decided to sit in the floor.  about this time i see jacob ALL OVER this ugly fat girl.  i was like thats nasty and tried to get up to get stephanie but i couldn't so chad went.  we agreed we were ready to leave and after having a huge fight with jacob, where he said he was going home with the big ugly and i wasn't allowed to leave stephanies that night, we tried to leave.  chad and daniel kept coming up to the car and i guess i gave him my number because he called me the next day.  he continued to call me for like two weeks even after i told him i didn't want to see him anymore because he was really creepy and always drunk and trying to get in my pants.  good lord.

so last night, jessies last night in town we went to the planet, not too much happen, got hit on by a lot of guys, danced with a lot of guys, ran into people from work.  it was a lot of fun.  brian called me while we were dying our hair and wanted me to go out with him instead of jessie because it was his last night in town as well.  i told him i couldn't really talk, i mean i was DYING MY HAIR, and he said he would call me back in thirty.  he never did *shrug* his loss.  I had kinda forgotten about him until he called.

I've made a lot of friends at work this summer.  I'm really glad I've gotten to know Sara, Savannah, Lacey, Tammy, Kim, Justin, Chad, and everyone else.  It's been a BLAST. 

I am a little upset though that I lost touch with a lot of my friends this summer.  Erika, Abdel and Alex.

Josh and I have hung out a lot and I'm glad we are starting to become really good friends again.  We are talking about being roommates and even starting to go back to church together.  I never knew after all these years he still believed. 

Matt Lee came back into my life this summer.  After not really hearing from him for two years, he's in the army, I had kind of pushed him from my mind.  He called me sometime in July to tell me he was in town and we had a BLAST the few days I got to hang out with him.  We really bonded.  He's changed a lot since the last time i went out with him.  We have a lot more in common now.  I'm not really sure where we are "romantically" yet because he had to go back to Fort Polk.  We still talk on the phone and I am going to try my hardest to go down there Labor day weekend.  If not we will just have to hope he gets to come home for Christmas.  At the end of January they are shipping him off to Afganastan where he will spend a year as a medic.  That will be a very hard year but I'm trying not to think of that right now.  We'll just have to roll with the punches and write each other everyday.  Everyone has told me not to get attached because his odds of coming back aren't good.  I've never been really good at taking advice.  If those people would just pray instead for his safety, that would be awesome.

It's hard to imagine that school is starting so soon.  I'll have students of my own soon.  It's kind of scary.  I'm really nervous.  It should be fun though.  I love violin, children and to teach so it should work out fine.  Cheddars will be a lot different with a lot of the servers going back to school but i think we will make it.  I hope that this fall brings less rain and good times.  I'm ready.